No Longer a Visitor

March 4, 2013 14 comments

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Walking through the doors of New Tribes Mission’s headquarters, I headed to the front desk to sign in. It was a strange feeling to be signing in like a stranger at a place that felt so much like home. But it hadn’t been home for over six years, and to the woman behind the desk I was a stranger and a visitor.

My day was filled with meetings and filling out paperwork. Each meeting added confirmation in my heart that this was where God would have me to be. Back in missions. Back to the same mission where Matt and I served for many years—yet in a new capacity. 

Being that God has given me a love of writing, it wasn’t a surprise when He touched my heart to explore the possibilities of joining the Communications team at NTM. Having recently lost my husband to cancer, I labored over when the timing would be right to proceed. I asked God to make it clear.

In the meantime, unbeknownst to me, the Director of Communications was praying about when it would be appropriate to write and let me know that if I was interested in writing for NTM, that they would love to have me consider that. He wanted it to be God’s timing—not his.

God answered both our prayers. The letter was written, I responded, and God is in the process of putting the finishing touches on the timing of His perfect plan.

I smiled as I walked out the doors at the end of the day, knowing that the next time I walked through those doors, I would no longer be a visitor.


ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Rosie Cochran

I am a widow—but my identity does not end there. I am a former pastor’s wife, former missionary, current full-time church secretary, mother of four great sons (and a wonderful daughter-in-law!), and author of three Christian suspense novels: Betrayed, Identity Revealed, and A Murder Unseen. (Available at: Amazon.com.) Greater than that, I am a child of God with a passion for God, my family, and writing!
If you want to connect with me, join me on Twitter, Facebook, Goodreads, and Pinterest. Interested in updates by email? CLICK HERE!

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Categories: Life, Missionary Life

Plans to Give You Hope and a Future

February 20, 2013 13 comments

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
~ Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

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This promise came to the Israelites in the middle of captivity. It wasn’t an immediate promise, but the hope of a better future beyond captivity.

During our journey with cancer, we weren’t captives, but we faced hardships and an unknown future. But we had God and each other, and that was enough. Still, there were those more distant unknowns, the after-Matt unknowns. Those unknowns could give cause to fret, which is why I think God gave me this verse.

It was like He was reassuring me that He had a plan for me—even an after-Matt plan. He was reassuring me that He had a hope for me—even an after-Matt hope. And now I’m at that place. I’m at the after-Matt place. So what’s next?

Matt and I had many discussions over the past few years of what my future would hold. Our numerous discussions always came back to the same conclusion, that I should head back into missions. Missions was where I was before I met Matt. Missions is where my heart remains.

The details have been coming together beautifully, so much so, that next week I will be making a trip to New Tribes Mission’s headquarters in Florida for an interview. During that time I will also meet with the Communications Department, which is where I am most interested in working. Missions, communicating, and writing—what a wonderful blend of ministry and what I love. Your prayers are appreciated as I make this trip—and I look forward to giving you an update afterwards.


ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Rosie Cochran

I am a widow—but my identity does not end there. I am a former pastor’s wife, former missionary, current full-time church secretary, mother of four great sons (and a wonderful daughter-in-law!), and author of three Christian suspense novels: Betrayed, Identity Revealed, and A Murder Unseen. (Available at: Amazon.com.) Greater than that, I am a child of God with a passion for God, my family, and writing!
If you want to connect with me, join me on TwitterFacebookGoodreads, and Pinterest.  Interested in updates by email? CLICK HERE!

Have a question? Email Me!

Categories: Life

Beautiful Moments

February 19, 2013 6 comments

It’s always good to have our thinking challenged. After my last post, a family friend lovingly wrote, “The empty space that Matt has left in your soul may still be there, but it can be a beautiful spot.” He was challenging and encouraging me that it can be beautiful right now. Not years from now, but right now.

As I thought over his words, God brought to mind all the beautiful moments He has blessed me with these past weeks. I couldn’t begin to list all of them, but I hold them close to my heart.

…Words of encouragement, offers of help, and hugs at just the right moment.

…Cards from friends and strangers alike—some from people I barely know who were touched by Matt’s struggle with cancer.

…Invites for coffee and a time to just chat.

…An invite to a Valentine Day’s party family style—to keep me occupied on that day.

And the list goes on.

Beautiful moments despite an empty space.

That begs the question: How can a “spot” in my life be filled with beautiful moments, but not be beautiful? I think he was right. This empty space can still be a beautiful spot right now. Maybe beautiful in a strange way, but still beautiful.


ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Rosie Cochran

I am a widow—but my identity does not end there. I am a former pastor’s wife, former missionary, mother of four great sons (and a wonderful daughter-in-law!), and author of three Christian suspense novels: Betrayed, Identity Revealed, and A Murder Unseen. (Available at: Amazon.com.) Greater than that, I am a child of God with a passion for God, my family, and writing!
If you want to connect with me, join me on TwitterFacebookGoodreads, and Pinterest.  Interested in updates by email? CLICK HERE!

Have a question? Email Me!

Categories: Devotional

There Is a Time and a Season

February 13, 2013 15 comments

“He has made everything beautiful in its time.”
(Ecclesiastes 3:11)

God has made everything beautiful in its time. This verse showed up in my Bible study time under God’s promises and how they apply to our lives. After a string of verses on there being a time and season for everything, God puts in this wonderful promise. God has made everything beautiful in its time.

I find it strange that it’s past tense. I keep wanting to say, “God will make everything beautiful in its time.” But it’s like He’s already done it. He has already made everything beautiful in its time. Easy to do when you know the beginning from the end.

As a new widow, I’m claiming His new mercies every morning. Leaning hard on God, I’m finding His strength to take me through these difficult days, the adjustments, the decisions. I’m finding His joy and peace in the hardship. But beautiful? I wouldn’t describe it like that. It doesn’t look beautiful right now. It doesn’t feel like everything will one day be beautiful again. I mean, how can life ever hold the same “beauty” without my beloved husband by my side? It doesn’t feel like that can be true. But are my beliefs based on feelings or on the truths of God’s Word?

It’s a given. My beliefs are rooted in the truths of God’s Word. That being true, when He plops a reassuring promise before me, I’m going to claim it and cling to it—even if I don’t quite get it. It’s a promise. It’s a truth. I’ll claim that any day over my unreliable feelings.

He has made everything beautiful in its time. Now’s just not that time. Right now it’s a time to mourn. It’s okay to mourn. It’s okay that the world doesn’t hold the same beauty. But I have that promise, that someday I’ll see again that God has made everything beautiful in its time.


ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Rosie Cochran

I am a widow—but my identity does not end there. I am a former pastor’s wife, former missionary, mother of four great sons (and a wonderful daughter-in-law!), and author of three Christian suspense novels: Betrayed, Identity Revealed, and A Murder Unseen. (Available at: Amazon.com.) Greater than that, I am a child of God with a passion for God, my family, and writing!
If you want to connect with me, join me on TwitterFacebookGoodreads, and Pinterest.  Interested in updates by email? CLICK HERE!

Have a question? Email Me!

Categories: Devotional

The Unknown Brother

February 4, 2013 6 comments

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Humor comes at the strangest moments—even at memorial services. The service was held at our former home church where I’ve continued to be their full-time secretary for the past five years. Before the service, a friend commented, “You don’t have any pictures of your brother in your office.”

“You’re right, I don’t,” I replied. The thought ran through my mind that I should probably remedy that before Chris heard about this—and then I put the thought aside.

As we sat around the house following the service, I was quick to catch on that a coverup was not going to work.

The story goes that as people came through the line, my sister would introduce herself as my sister. The response was often a warm, “I’ve heard so much about you!”

Chris stood next to Gill. Following suit, he would introduce himself as my brother, but instead of a warm “I’ve heard so much about you,” his introduction most often elicited a surprised, “I didn’t even know Rosie had a brother!”

At one point Chris turned to Gill with a smile and said, ‘I’m going to have to talk to Rosie about this.'”

Laughter erupted as the story finished. I had to add my earlier thoughts to the story, admitting my coverup wasn’t going to work. It was way too late to get a picture of Chris on my office shelf. Of course, I did point out to my brother that my sister calls me several times a week on the way to work, my mom calls me several times a week on the way home from work, so maybe if he started calling me he would come up in conversation more with the folks at the church. We’ll see how that goes. 🙂


ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Rosie Cochran

I am a pastor’s wife, former missionary, mother of four great sons (and a wonderful daughter-in-law!), and author of three Christian suspense novels: Betrayed, Identity Revealed, and A Murder Unseen. (Available at: Amazon.com.) I have a passion for God, my family, and writing!
If you want to connect with me, join me on TwitterFacebookGoodreads, and Pinterest.  Interested in updates by email? CLICK HERE!

Have a question? Email Me!

Categories: Laughter, Life

A Gift from God

February 3, 2013 6 comments

When hospice came in, I began to make plans for the inevitable, knowing that when the time came there would be too much to do while too many emotions clouded my mind. I remember sitting down to write a tentative obituary, attempting to sum up my husband’s life in but a few words. It seemed an impossible task—until God brought a story to mind. A story I had heard many times over the years. A story from his mother. 

Laura became pregnant with Matt during their training to be missionaries. Realizing that this would mean she would miss many of the classes, Laura was far from pleased. One night her displeasure was brought short. She had a dream, and in her dream she had a baby boy whose name was Matthew.

Upon waking, Laura told her husband of her dream and they looked up what the name Matthew meant. It means “a gift from God.” That day Laura’s attitude did an abrupt 180 as God’s message became loud and clear. This pregnancy, this son, was a gift from God.

And so the obituary was written. In a nutshell, Matt’s life was a gift from God to his family and friends, which he gave back to God in a lifetime of service.

THE OBITUARY:

SKANEATELES | Matthew Cochran, 51, of Skaneateles, died Wednesday, Jan. 30, 2013, at home, after a two-year battle with pancreatic cancer. Matthew was born in Williamsport, Pa., to Francis and Laura (Taylor) Cochran. His mother always reminded him that his name meant “a gift from God.” Matt has been just that to his family and friends. He has been a gift from God and a faithful servant to God. Raised in Venezuela by missionary parents, Matt followed in their steps. During missionary training, he met his wife, Rosie, and they returned to Venezuela. After serving 20 years with New Tribes Mission, ministering in remote tribal locations, they moved to central New York, where Matt spent several years ministering to migrant Hispanic workers, before taking the pastorate at the First Church in Skaneateles, in September of 2009. He is survived by his wife, Rosie Cochran; four sons, Joseph (Jen), Jamie, Tyler, and Tyrel; his mother, Laura Cochran and two brothers, Fran and Keith (Rebekah). Matthew was predeceased by his father, Francis Cochran; his sister, Melissa Cochran and his sister-in-law, Janet Cochran. Family and friends are invited to call from 5 to 7 p.m. Friday, Feb. 1, 2013, at the Second Baptist Church, 1 Herman Ave., Auburn, following with a memorial service at 7 p.m. with the Rev. Brian Hill officiating. Brew Funeral Home is in charge of the arrangements.

Published in The Citizen from January 31 to February 1, 2013

(Link to the obituary.)


ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Rosie Cochran

I am a pastor’s wife, former missionary, mother of four great sons (and a wonderful daughter-in-law!), and author of three Christian suspense novels: Betrayed, Identity Revealed, and A Murder Unseen. (Available at: Amazon.com.) I have a passion for God, my family, and writing!
If you want to connect with me, join me on TwitterFacebookGoodreads, and Pinterest.  Interested in updates by email? CLICK HERE!

Have a question? Email Me!

Categories: Life, Our Cancer Journey

A Glorious Hope

February 1, 2013 26 comments

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Precious in the sight of the LORD is the death of his saints.
~ Psalm 116:15

Words at times fail. After losing much blood since Sunday, I could hear Matt’s breathing changing to that strange rattling sound off and on during the night. At five on Wednesday morning I still heard him breathing, but at seven when I checked on him his body was here, but his spirit was reunited with his Savior and loved ones who have gone on before.

The hardest day of my life was also my husband’s greatest graduation. He is with his Savior. He has been ushered into glory. Can I really begrudge him that? To be free of his cancer-stricken mortal body? To be fully comprehending the love of his Savior? How he must be rejoicing to see his earthly father up there and other friends and loved ones. No, there’s no way I can begrudge him any of that. 

Though our hearts feel a great void and loss, and we grieve deeply, we do not grieve as those that have no hope. Why? Because we know Matt took God at His Word. He recognized that he was a sinner, incapable of earning his way to heaven through any good living of his own. When God said He sent His only Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross for our sins; and that Jesus rose the third day victorious over death; Matt believed Him. He confessed with his mouth, he believed with his heart, and by doing so accepted God’s free gift of eternal life. We know Matt is in heaven with his Savior and that we have the certain hope of a future heavenly reunion. What a glorious hope that is.

Funeral arrangements have been made. Both the Calling Hours and the Memorial Service will be held at:

SECOND BAPTIST CHURCH
1 N. Herman Avenue
Auburn, NY

The times are as follows:
CALLING HOURS: Friday, February 1, 2013 at 5-7PM
MEMORIAL SERVICE: Friday, February 1, 2013 at 7PM
A fellowship time and refreshments will follow after the service.

(Link to the obituary.)


ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Rosie Cochran

I am a pastor’s wife, former missionary, mother of four great sons (and a wonderful daughter-in-law!), and author of three Christian suspense novels: Betrayed, Identity Revealed, and A Murder Unseen. (Available at: Amazon.com.) I have a passion for God, my family, and writing!
If you want to connect with me, join me on TwitterFacebookGoodreads, and Pinterest.  Interested in updates by email? CLICK HERE!

Have a question? Email Me!

Categories: Life, Our Cancer Journey
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