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The Upside to the Downside

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Heading up to the Wilmot Cancer Center for an appointment with the oncologist has a downside. There’s the fact staring you in the face that they’re going to tell you some not-so-good news. It kind of goes with the territory when you’re talking about pancreatic cancer. At least that’s been our experience.

They’re good about it. We have a great team consisting of a doctor, nurse practitioner and nurse. They just happen to be the bearers of not-so-good news most of the time. This time was no different.

The goal with the current chemotherapy is not to cure, not even to shrink the tumors, but to the hold them at bay. Since the previous CT scan was two months before Matt began the chemo, some growth on this most recent scan was too be expected.

It didn’t want to disappoint. It was there. And more growth than we had anticipated seeing.

Since the argument we would like to believe is that this new growth took place during the two months prior to the beginning of the chemotherapy, Matt will continue the chemo. After two more months, he will have another CT scan to determine if the treatment is in fact preventing tumor growth or not.

Thankfully, there is an upside to making the trek to Rochester. The upside is I get to spend a day, or at least a good part of a day, with my hubby. That part is always appreciated.

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  1. Deborah Anziano
    March 11, 2012 at 10:03 pm

    Hello dear sister in Christ. We’re praying here in Tennessee. Cancer is super scary and I am so thankful for your strength and faith in God!! It helps me to know that if I were you that it is possible to be strong like you. Being on either end, to me, would about be the same from what I imagine….that fear…it’s just there….of losing…of leaving–even though it’s for our eternal home.

    PLEASE PLEASE add my dear cousin to your prayer list. He was diagnosed just last week with Burkitts Lymphoma. They began the first round of chemo on Saturday. He’s 31. His name is Blake Dotson. He’s married with two little kiddos.

    In asking prayer at random places we go, at Target the cashier says, “He uses His Eagles to get to His Chicks”. I love you and Matt both.

    • March 11, 2012 at 10:18 pm

      Thanks for your prayers. Strong though? More like leaning hard on the One who holds me together! I figure if He can hold the universe together, He can keep me from falling apart at the seams. He is faithful.

      So sorry to hear about your cousin. I’ll add Blake to my prayer list.

  2. March 11, 2012 at 10:22 pm

    Praying for you guys!

  3. tracy
    March 12, 2012 at 6:37 am

    You and Matt amaze me…God’s peace is definitely evident in your lives 🙂 We will continue to keep you in prayer and know that God’s plans are better than we can even imagine!!!

  4. March 12, 2012 at 6:58 am

    My prayers are with you and Matt.

  5. Tom and Cindy Miller
    March 13, 2012 at 10:05 am

    as a member of PNT church we pray for you often. Our love to you and your family in this difficult time..May he hold you and carry you through this time.

  6. March 14, 2012 at 12:42 pm

    Praying Rosie! Since I’ve been following your story I’ve gotten a little closer to understanding your situation. My 84 year old father had a stroke about one month ago. As they were trying to determine the cause for the stroke they found three malignant tumors. Dad’s age, the stroke and the severity of the cancer isn’t going to make Chemo an option.
    Dad’s been teaching the word of God for 67 years. Now he gets to wait until Jesus finally calls him home.
    Blessings on you Sis.

    • March 14, 2012 at 7:34 pm

      Hi Mike. So sorry to hear about your father. He’s obviously run the good race and is ready for the time when his Lord calls him home. It’ll only get better for him—and there’s much solace in that fact. Unfortunately, that reassurance doesn’t erase or minimize the pain of those of us who remain, those of us who live on facing the loss. You and your family are in my prayers.

  7. donna smith
    March 16, 2012 at 3:06 pm

    Just because you don’t hear from me often doesn’t mean that I am not praying and thinking of all of you often!!!! God bless. Donna Smith

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